I know you are going through a hard time right now. When I look into your eyes, I see something eating you up inside. #Life has been very weird lately, and we seem to be drifting apart. I never want this!! We have talked a lot about relationships, and family, and I never want you to think I don’t want you in my life. I wish I could see you every single day, but that is not possible now. I only see you once a month, and that eats me up bigtime! You have no idea.
Many “weekend Dads” are ok seeing their child once or twice a month – but not me. When I separated from your mom, it was very difficult. Walking out of that house was the hardest thing I have ever had to do!! I know you were so young when I left, and I always worried you would feel you did something to contribute to that.
About 6 months ago, you began telling me things that really shocked me, and I was preparing for HUGE changes in my life, and yours. But as of lately, you seem much different. I’m not sure if it’s YOU, or if you are being negatively persuaded in any way. I seriously hope not. Were it not for my Dad, Grampa, noticing, I likely wouldn’t be as bothered by this change. I know it must be so hard coming from a split family, and I am so sorry! When you were born, I never imagined seeing you so little, because I was the stay-at-home parents for your first 2 years of life. I wasn’t like most Dad’s, who went to work, came home, kissed their kids, and slept.
One of my greatest joys in LIFE, is getting to be there for you during that time, as an infant. I always want you to know you can tell me ANYTHING in confidence. You are a lot like me, sweety, and I know you don’t like opening up with your emotions. But I will help you with that, as I am learning how peaceful it feels to express yourself and your feelings. If I had one wish, it would be to be able to see you everyday! I miss watching you open your eyes in the morning, and preparing your breakfast. I miss going on #school trips, and picking you up in your classroom at 3:30pm. I miss getting your evening bath ready, and brushing your hair. I wish I could be the last face you saw before you slept at night, too. I don’t mean to sound selfish, but you are the love of my life! You will not understand the complexity of relationships for many years, but I know you are smart. I’ve known that you are much like, since you were a child. You are creative, selfless, and so funny!! There is noone else like you on this planet, and I want you to always realize your greatness!
You likely won’t read this for several years, but I know you will one day. Life truly is beautiful. But were it not for the #RELATIONSHIPS, it would seem empty. You are such an amazing human being, my daughter, and I will make sure you reach your God-given #potential one day! I can’t thank you enough for coming into my life, and making me the happiest #father imaginable! You are my EVERYTHING.
Love Always and Forever n’ ever….