Hello and happy 2017 to every and anyone reading this. I am currently on my couch. In terms of my goals, hopes, and dreams, I am a bit closer, although it feels like I’m slacking. I just got over a 2-week MAN cold, and it was a tough one. Whenever I get a cold, I seriously plan like it’s the end. I would tell my wife before going to bed, “If I don’t wake up…” She’s like, “Oh please, it’s just a cold, honey.” But I have good reason to be scared.
Years ago, a good friend of mine, Peto, had a bad cold. Peto wasn’t the type to go to the Dr., or even take medicine. Perhaps it wasn’t MANly. But everytime I get a cold, I think of Peto. At the age of 33, he went to bed with a cold. Little did he, or anyone know, it was actually pneumonia. They said he drowned in his sleep, but went peacefully. This always serves as a remind to me, to not only take care of your body, but to be prepared. Few, in their 30’s, are prepared to die in their sleep.
I keep telling myself, “You are alive!!! You can DO things!!” I feel like I haven’t been working towards my goals as much as I’d like to. My excuses? No time and energy, basically. I find it hard to hop into creativity mode after work, as I’m tired as hek. I have so many things I want to accomplish, but fear I just may not have time. Many seem disappointed when I speak of myself in the future as a NON-welder. My parents, especially, think I am nuts for talking about leaving my current job, which blesses me with a good pay, benefits, and good atmosphere. I just think I can do better. I’m not trying to prove them wrong; but I am trying to prove to myself that I can reach my dreams. I’ve prayed to God for sooooooooooome time now, asking for a little help; guidance; maybe a cool Million so I can quit my job and start working on my goals.
I turned 37 years OLD on February 8, 2017. This sorta’ bothers me, as I’m well over halfway to the Heavens, and still poundin’ away in a factory. I don’t think I’m any better than any of my coworkers. I do, however, know that I have dreams and hopes of something better. I know I have a lot more to offer the world than my welding skills. I feel like a kid with tons of free-ride tickets, but I’m too short to even go on the rides! I have so many great ideas and so much inspiration – but no time to do anything with them. Sometimes I think I should hire a #lifecoach, but even that would make me feel like a loser; like I couldn’t figure this out on my own. Everyday, when I go to work, I carry my black bag of dreams. I will elaborate on this another time, but basically it’s a briefcase. It contains my many OTG (on-the-go) projects, rough notebooks, and ideas I spontaneously get (usually while driving!). Many of my neighbours, whom know me as a Welder, probably wonder why the hek I carry this black bag over my shoulder, along with my lunch and thermos, everyday. Noone has ever asked, and that kinda’ bothers me. Even driving a co-worker home one day, he asked in a strong Indian accent: “What’s with the briefcase? Are you in school or something?” I just replied, “My dreams are in there.” I’m gonna’ continue pecking away. I want to encourage anyone, especially my own kids, to never settle when you think you can do better! Don’t just get STUCK in a job that’s “decent”. If you can offer more to the world, get out and do it!
<– My DREAMS!!
I am hoping to post one of my first VISUAL pieces of art very soon. One of my biggest blocks has been creating my cartoons/comics. I am a perfectionist, and that has to stop! I’m gonna’ forget about the specifics and just have fun. When I’d create art as a kid, it was so much fun. That’s what art should be, fun and exhilarating! I’ve stressed much about the what-ifs, and it has caused me to keep putting these dreams on hold. It is now 2017, and I say this is the year I make things happen. I hope to have 1000 followers very soon! Thank you very much for reading this. Be well, be creative, respect EVERYONE, and seek.